The silence is killing me?

If you really want things to be normal again you should start by telling him that. It will be scary and hard but I know how you feel, believe it or not I've had a very similar mishap and didnt handle it well. So take my advice and talk to him. Tell him how sorry you are and how you feel and that you would do anything to take it back and make things go back to normal and how much you value your friendship. If he is honestly your friend and has any feelings for you at all, he will want the same thing and forgive you. This will be scary and hard but I wish I had done the same thing when it was me and my guy friend. I really hope you take my advice. Best of Luck!!!